some quick flashbacks of last night

i was reading through a blogsite of someone else.happyyak,i think.
man..her blog was truely some quick summary from a fiction book and i thought its really interesting to read on.

i was about to leave some dear comments and encouragements for her but i thought i better not before i sound too dumb and childish for her.she was 29,i am just 9 years her junior.
and sometimes it pays to keep your own "brillant" thoughts to yourself before they turned dumb.

lets see...well,my mum made me cry last night again.its all becoz she always think i am kinda selfish and yes..just despise my own brother.which is kind of a fact but really,i cant help it.

the only reason i kinda despise my elder bro is becoz i feel for my parents.maybe she cant understand that and think i am just a sinner by doing that.so fair and square.

what happened last night was he came in my room and asked where is the newspaper,while im just trying to sum up the kinda interview questions as for preparations for tml.
i mean,how far can a newspaper get?its not as if i dump them in the bin or burn them.its always either on the table or under the other table.
and i seriously cant rem' where i had placed them.so i told him i dunno.
and he really get pissed off(so am i) after several askings,and my mum cuts in and told me to hand over the papers in a nice tone at first.
any irate person in my shoes would naturally snapped back in a harsher tone,and i did saying i really dunno.

and the rest is history.im graced with the name of being selfish by her and irresponsible by him.
wtf-ish.

and there my bro goes how i would die out there if i work with this kinda irresponsible attitude.i secretly wanting to retort back that if the person isnt you,i would offer ten of my hands to help.

i knew i was wrong but i am not too sorry.anyway yesterday recruit section was nothing.its a holiday,no employer wants to post their recruitment there.
plus maybe im just never too sorry to him.

my mum always do this to me.hurting me and makes me cry secretly.i always wonder for all the things i have done to help her is never enough to make up for the bad things i have done to my bro.

oh well..its ok.shes my mum and i love her.
and luckily i have my ever comforting daddy.he is always the soft approacher,the comforting source.

last night while he was chatting with me,i kinda sum up the few fav topics that he always love to talk with me.

1)nutritions of food
2)family peace
3)headaches with mum
4)disappointments with elder bro
5)religions
6)his stewards days
7)the eating habits of Britons,Americans and so on..
8)china
9)his own plans
10)the rising of prices of china wines.

haha..my old man~